2010

the new year is exciting.

i buy a cute new planner {for 6 bucks at walmart} & somehow feel a little fresher just because it’s the first day on the first page.

i usually vow to remember people’s birthdays & never drink pepsi again.

a weight loss regimen is mapped out.

i plan to PLAN ahead.

i always resolve to simplify.

i try.

i fail.

i succeed sometimes.

i live.

life is life.

the good, the bad, the super good & the ugly.

and then comes another new years party.

the planning begins again.

but this time my plan is a little different.

the plan is to not plan.

2010 is all about the present.

livin’ life day to day.

perhaps even second by second.

one foot in front of the other style.

my goal for this year is to

live with the spirit as my guide.

go where he’d want me to go

and be who he’d want me to be.

‘cause

trying to be who I want me to be is seriously exhausting.

but god knows me better than i know myself.

he’s on my side & he’s much kinder to me than i am to me.

much more forgiving & much more patient.

his gift is the peace that i can’t seem to find after i write a long crazy list of resolutions of what i “should” be.

so this year, my planner is blank.

{and i’m okay with that.}

[i’ll probably forget your birthday; sorry in advance.]

instead of trying to be a certain thing, i’m just giving myself permission to let go & enjoy a new season to breathe, love, be grateful, laugh, screw up, forgive, heal, grow & learn.

*and i'm not giving up pepsi.

{not just yet anyway.}