i was just feelin' overwhelmed by the trials of life, and the heartache & struggles that myself, friends & family, & fellow-humankind go through. there is so much hardship in the world; so many bad things that happen to good people.
my heart was heavy & hurting.
and on top of all that...i was *st-ressed to the max* about these dang cupcakes that i had to make for activity day. nothing earth shattering, just the usual angie drama...wanting everything to match & be aesthetically pleasing: 'cause i'm obsessive like that.
well, after much hurry & crazy-ish moments, the cupcakes have been baked & activity day has come & gone.
for our lil "lesson" we focused on President Monson's recent messages at conference. each of our girls read something that was meaningful to them.
one of the cute girlies read this amazing quote by the newly sustained Prophet of my church:
"Mortality is a period of testing, a time to prove ourselves worthy to return to the presence of our Heavenly Father. In order to be tested, we must sometimes face challenges and difficulties. At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel’s end—no dawn to break the night’s darkness. We feel surrounded by the pain of broken hearts, the disappointment of shattered dreams, and the despair of vanished hopes. We join in uttering the biblical plea “Is there no balm in Gilead?”
We are inclined to view our own personal misfortunes through the distorted prism of pessimism. We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.
With all my heart and the fervency of my soul, I lift my voice in testimony today as a special witness and declare that God does live. Jesus is His Son, the Only Begotten of the Father in the flesh. He is our Redeemer; He is our Mediator with the Father. He loves us with a love we cannot fully comprehend, and because He loves us, He gave His life for us. My gratitude to Him is beyond expression."
***and as she was reciting that in her adorable little 10-year-old voice, I felt a calming peace come over me. a clarity and freshness eased my mind & mismatching cupcakes certainly didn't seem all that important, afterall.
i believe President Monson's words. i know with every ounce of my heart that there is a mindful God in heaven who is our cheerleader & friend. i believe in a Savior, Jesus Christ who overcame not only sin, but disappointment, grief, depression, and any pain we might be facing.
tonight my heart is heavy with gratitude.
gratitude for life & experiences that help us to "make weak things become strong."
happy happy happy