8.04.2009

going at my own pace


my brain spends a lot of it’s time
daydreaming.

thinking of ideas, thoughts, projects,
possibilities, goals, plans, dreams.

problem is:
lottsa times my energy level,
limited mommy-schedule & resources/capabilities
don’t exactly match up to my vision.

the fabric remains on the shelf.
the blogs have yet to be written.
the photos are still disorganized & the bed isn’t made.
the etsy shop hasn’t opened.
the friends still need to be called back.

i spent my weekend feeling frustrated by the fact that life has TOO much to offer.

GOOD things.

while i know that there is nothing in the world i’d rather be doing than raising my two beauties - sometimes i still feel over-stimulated by the outside world & feel pulled in five thousand different unnecessary directions.

i feel foolish when i’m constantly scraping by on deadlines.

i sometimes compare my abilities to others & question how so-and-so can always look like a million bucks, or how she always manages to be “perfect.”

how do they do it all???

***

monday i had the unique and spontaneous-ish opportunity of assisting a fellow relief society sister with some simple errands. while we were visiting, she said something that has stayed with me & i’ll probably always carry in my heart.

“did ya know angie, the Lord says, we should just go at our own pace.”

the truth is, those words were exactly what i needed to be reminded of at that very second…like, tender mercy style.

i recalled the scripture she spoke of:
“...for it is not requisite that a man should run faster than he has strength. And again, it is expedient that he should be diligent, that thereby he might win the prize...”
-mosiah 4:27

i immediately felt an insane amount of love for this lady that i barely even knew! i felt the spirit sweetly testify of the Lord’s love for her, me, & all his children.

he loves us all the same.
we are all so, so different.
we can’t all do the same things.
we all have different stories and capacities.
different circumstances.
different tests.
different talents.
different challenges.
different missions.

heavenly father doesn’t love us for [what] we accomplish,
he just loves us.

after our morning together i went home and underlined that passage [in pink] and vowed to myself & my God to {try} ever harder to be diligent & obey that counsel.

23 comments:

granny said...

Funny how the answers come when we are serving others...thanks for doing that and for sharing the insight.

runningfan said...

Thanks for sharing! This sister needed to hear that, too.

Stephanie said...

the thing is . . . we tend to compare the WORST in ourselves to the BEST in others.
no fair. {to them OR us!}
not "run[ning] faster then [we] ha[ve] strength" is such good counsel.
i'm going to remember that one.
thanks.

KP said...

thanks for sharing that :)

VICKI IN AZ said...

Thank you in a "Tender Mercy" kind of way.
What I wish for...
To be happy with my own pace.
Where I want to go...
always at my own pace.

You are inspired, thank you for sharing and thanks to you new very very blessed friend.
I ♥ U!

Lisa said...

I too get like that and it totally brings me down with stress, because I want to do it all. But I have to remind myself that NO ONE does it all.

Jared read a book by a successful business man who says to delete the bottom 10 percent of your to-do list forever. I did, and it helped. I just had to let go of the need to do it.

katie said...

i'm happy to know that i'm not the only one who feels like this and who needs to hear similar things. this is perfect for me right now. i've just been down lately... for a lot of the same reasons. so i'm happy you can share things with every one that are uplifting and helpful.

[you're opening an etsy shop? that's so awesome! i can't wait to see it! lol. but no rush, i won't die or anything. i wouldn't want to kill the cutest mom ever.]

<3katie

katie said...

i'm happy to know that i'm not the only one who feels like this and who needs to hear similar things. this is perfect for me right now. i've just been down lately... for a lot of the same reasons. so i'm happy you can share things with every one that are uplifting and helpful.

[you're opening an etsy shop? that's so awesome! i can't wait to see it! lol. but no rush, i won't die or anything. i wouldn't want to kill the cutest mom ever.]

<3katie

reddladybug said...

thanks for the insight.

i have the perfect cure.
an oversized suit case.
trip to cali.
come, come along.

scrapmom4 said...

Thanks for sharing...my to do list today overfloweth with good things. I'm glad "catch up on blogs" was one I checked off first. :)

Marilyn said...

You are my tender mercy today. Thanks! ♥

Craftify It! said...

Thanks for sharing this! This is something we ALL need to hear!

Natalie said...

angie YOU are awesome. seriously. this is one of the greatest blog posts i have read--and JUST what i needed to hear..you know..tender mercyin' style :D

Lori said...

Well we might not be close in age (your so young and I'm, well not so young), but we are thinking alike. I find my mind is constantly dreaming, pretending, remembering and wishing all the time. I want to do it all. I want everyone to benefit from me doing it all and I want everyone, including myself to be insanly happy. I have found that sometimes that road is pretty rough, but I just keep going along. I have pulled out my scriptures and now have highlighted, in pink, this wonderful scripture. Thank you.

kacee said...

Thanks Ang! Needed to hear that...

Goodmangang said...

I constantly feel like I am failing in so many areas in my life. I have come to terms to do all that I can and not beat myself up. I think we as women look at others and think they have it all when we really don't know there struggles. You are doing great and just remember he does love us all!

VICKI IN AZ said...

Hey, I was doin' a little scappin', got a few missionary pix to do and some fam pix. Saw a photo of you, thought how much I ♥ U. And just had to come over here and tell you so...
♥,
Vicki

Billie said...

Thank you Angie. What perfect insight. I'm so grateful you share your rough stuff as well as the glorious. It helps everyone! You are an incredible person.

Mom2BJM(Amy) said...

Beautiful thoughts Angie!

Sassy said...

OHHHHHHHH I needed to read this so badly today.....too many irons in the fire and dragging my really fat fanny.....thank you for always helping us remember that someone else is in charge and I don't have to feel like I am the only one trying to keep it together.....I used to have a saying on my fridge that says..."It's better to be a pleasant something than a perfect everything".....I need to remember that...THANKS MY FRIEND! ♥ YA

Kaelene said...

You are a blessing to all of the world . . . and especially to those who are wise enough to take time to read your blog!
Thank you for sharing your experience, and for reminding us that we CANNOT do more than we have strength for. I am humbled to be reminded, again! ♥ u

catherineannsmith said...

You are an awesome mom and an awesome blogger! All of your posts are so inspirational.

cori said...

i love you more and more. everday. really. i mean that. you touch my heart! and make me feel more at peace with life.

pinkster. you are my bestie!

yo.

never forget it, promise?

-cori