a social expiriment

my floors have been covered in some sort of sticky substance for almost 3 days.
i'm behind on pretty much everything & haven't grocery shopped in 2 weeks.
i'm feeling on the ball with girls camp plans, but there's still a lot to do.
i've tried to exercise for the past week, and i don't get farther than lacing up my shoes.
working part time fills up all the leisurely hours i used to enjoy to myself.
and on top of all of that, i try to remain calm, positive, happy & content.

it just seems like there are lots of [necessary] priorities lately.
priorities that i know are important, but ones that stretch & challenge me too.

in most ways i am happier than i've ever been-and i really mean that!
but in some ways i feel more discombobulated than i've ever felt, too.

in relief society yesterday, we had an excellent & inspiring lesson entitled, "hearing the voice of the lord & finding peace in a world full of noise."

this lesson resonated with me so much because it pinpointed how things have felt lately: noisy.
[so] noisy that it has been hard to focus & feel inspired.

our darling teacher challenged us to ask ourselves, "what sacrifice would you be willing to make to have a more peaceful life & reduce the inner noise, so that you can hear the lord's voice in your life?"

i thought about that [long & hard] all day yesterday & today.
i know everyone's' answer to that question is different.

but i [know] & feel, very strongly, that my answer {for me} is the internet.
it's time for me to take a little [cold turkey] break from blogging & facebook & google reader.

at first it was a little hard for my stubborn self to admit that,
because i really enjoy chatting & keeping in touch, and sharing & learning & feeling inspired by all y'alls blogs. i mean, i've been blogging & keeping up on other peoples' blogs almost everyday for a few years now! it's just something i do!

but, i'm realizing that with the {really} good has also come some bad.
sometimes, i get more focused on sharing myself with others, than i do my own little family.
sometimes, i compare my talents to other bloggers & feel crappy about myself.
sometimes, i get get fired up about a status or blog that hurt my feelings.
sometimes, i feel random, unneeded pressure with it all-which might not make sense.

this feels like a break-up, and it shouldn't be that dramatic. haha.
it's not you, it's me. ;)

i just need a little time to re-group & reduce my inner noise *if you will. :)
i need to experiment with a simpler life for a while.

i hope that i can find a way to balance it all someday, but this just isn't my season for that.

i know that i'm in one of the most beautiful seasons of my life-with small babies at home. one that is spent creating a world that is sweet & magical for them. every night i kiss their foreheads & humbly feel the power of that sacred stewardship that god has entrusted myron & i with.

tonight i recorded chloe singing one of my favorite primary songs. it makes me feel peace. i feel god guiding me in my life. i acknowledge his hand in all i have. and the older i get, the more i realize i need his constant support & companionship.

you probably didn't need to know all of that.
but i just wanted to explain my internet-hiatus that i'm about to take.
and thank you for reading my silly blog and all my random thoughts throughout the day.
and thank you for just being my friends despite my [many] faults & drama-queen tendencies.
i love you!

i don't know how long i'll be,
but ta-ta-for-now. :)

email me: angieinpink@gmail.com
'cause i'll miss ya. ♥